Ground Zero

So I guess this is how it all starts... being a mom. You trade your prized designer jeans for sweats, your straightener and curling iron for a pony tail, loose the bangs, the heels, the hoop earrings and basically anything that assisted you in being relatively attractive, because... that's not what motherhood is about. You trade the lipgloss in your back pocket for the extra pacifier, the purse for the oversized diaper bag that weighs more than the child and try and find the time to even go to the bathroom. But aren't they so worth it? Motherhood has been to say the least, a sacrifice of my life.... and I wouldn't have it any other way. .

I have always been a very private person... which is odd to see my fingers type ..because I have always considered myself quite open.. If that is possible to be both? I admit... I have no idea what I am doing on this blog or even how it works. I doubt anyone can find any interest in my boring sleepless life but here I sit finding the need to record my life and share it. Odd for a "private person"... but like I said, motherhood does bring out a different person in us women. To start off, I am not extremely social, artistic, creative, or even interesting.. I don't feel I have any hobbies or extreme interests... I am sure you are wondering, why even blog? But I think that is exactly why I am.. to find myself. My life has taken a different path the last year and somehow I feel like this is exactly what I needed. I'm finding true friends, growing closer to my family, and learning how to love someone through the most difficult time in my life. I'm not sure where I will be a year from now but I have learned not to have expectations in life, just goals. Today is the first day of the new year and I want to start fresh.... become a better person, girlfriend, daughter, friend and most of all.. mother. The most important calling I have. I want to remember and record the events of this time of growing and learning.. 2012, here we go. What do we have to gain if we never take any chances to grow?
 Welcome to my life, or I should say.. the life of a mother. Mom, I have truly been humbled

Dylan Krew and I, our first christmas all together.

December 25, 2011