Big Girl Steps

Well the last week has been quite a jump for me. I knew I needed a jump star to get back into things... but wow, what a journey. As I sit here and ponder the last 11 weeks of my life one word comes to mind, exhaustion... then JOY. (Of course(; ) Who knew I would be sitting here blogging about my teenage motherhood as my baby watches cartoons in his swing and I run to grab breast pads because it's just that time of day again. One thing that amazes me most, I have never looked back in a regretful sense. I don't know how but I have just proceeded forward, I never contemplated that my life would be ending or that this would change me as a person. God has undeniably been with me this entire way and I am so grateful.

Last week I started my first GRCC class. With a baby that was rounding bed time at about 2:30 AM on a early morning basis and having to leave my house by 7 AM, I didn't think it was possible. I have been amazed how it has all just worked out. I am blessed to have a mom who just rolls with things. For the reasons she drives me crazy, I also love her. She's given my overwhelmed structured personality a reality check, in the way that "life just goes on Daph, you just do it." And I am proud to report that baby and I are to bed around 11 o'clock PM and sleeping sound. School has seriously been a life saver. I thrive off structure, I need to know what I am doing during the day and I admit, I was floundering. My online school wasn't demanding anything of me, I had no extra ciricular and I found myself with all the time in the world with no time in the world. Now I get home at around 9:30 AM to find my sweet baby still asleep in bed every day now, I LOVE IT!- Things are slowly getting so much better.... Currently I am finishing my online and will start a math class at EHS at the semester, so I am really busy but it is working out well. On top of that, my cheer team competes twice this coming weekend.... I decided to join them mid last week... 3 toe-touches into a backhandspring.. you got it Kim! (; Just had a baby, these feet haven't left the ground since last February mind you... Don't judge me. HAHA - I don't quite know how it has all come together, class, online, cheer practice, baby.. but life is just returning back to normal and I am determined to finish strong. This afternoon I sat on the floor stretching, nursing Krew, and reading him "Give Me Liberty! An American History"... not your typical 17 year old afternoon haha I sat there laughing asking Krew, "Do you like 16th century history? Good, cause I don't so listen up buddy!" Hey, I do what I can. (:
On a personal note, Dylan returned to SOU on very short notice last week. I'm not one to hide how I feel, it definently has been very hard but we knew this going into it. Education is the most important thing we can give to Krew. We take everyday one step at a time and encourage eachother, who knows where our adventure will take us next week! All I know is, we can do this. We have had our ups and downs but I just have to take a moment to say I am very grateful for him. He's taught me so much and has shows me unconditional love. Dylan, this all better be worth it! Because this sucks! (; But we can do it ♥
"There is no limit to what you can imagine. And with commitment, with effort, what you can imagine you can become. Put your mind to work for you. Believe that you can do it. The world will tell you that you can't. Yet, in your belief you'll find the strength, you'll find the ability, to do it anyway." Ralph Marston