sorry i've been gone.. here's a little something from my lovely (;

When Daphne first asked me to write something in the blog a couple things came to my mind. One was "I cant spell to save my life since I got to college theres no way im gonna write something and have people laugh at me". The other thought that came to my mind was happiness. I really felt good that Daphne wanted me to write in this blog and put a little of myself into this great thing Daphne has started. Reading her stuff and seing some of her followers comments brings a smile to my face. With all the struggles Daphne has been through the past year, and the struggles we both have endured together  its truly something special to see Daphne reaching out and telling our story, and inspiring others to start their own blog and share their stories. Theres nothing that warms my heart more then coming home to enumclaw and walking into a house and seeing two of the most important people in my life smiling back at me from the couch. Thats how its been since October, when Krew was born. Im happy now to share that my tenure at Southern Oregon University is over. Football will now have to take the backseat as I now will come home to work and go to school closer to home. I cant begin to explain how excited I am to come home get on my feet and be with two of the most special people in my life, and the two people that I love more then anything else. I know Daphne had been going through alot when I was at SOU, and it was extremely hard on her to take care of a baby, go to school, and cheer. I hated to sit eight hours away knowing I could be doing more for her. To make things clear my decision to come back home was NOT because Daphne made me, or told me I needed to come home. I mae my decision because I was tired of Daphne taking on the struggle alone, and the fact that I love Daphne and krew with all my heart and I want to be close to them and take this journey on together. I want to show them that Im not just a dumb, young, punk kid, and that I can go out work, go to school take care of krew and be back with the love of my life Daphne Rogers. That being said after Daphne graduates I am planning to pick up the football again and find a new home to play the game I love so much, BUT only if Daphne likes the school and is wiling to come with me and go to school there as well. I know there are alot of components that come into play when you have a child and I doubt Daphne, and Krew will want to go across country to live and go to school just so i can also play football. But hey you never know maybe Daphne will like the place. Hopefully its somewhere relatively close and its a place where Daphne can see herself at for 4 years. I have made my mistakes over the past 8 months and alot of those mistakes have affected Daphne, and krew in a negative way. I want to apologize to them for some of my actions, and also thank them for sticking by my side even through those tough times. Daphne....Krew....I love you guys so much and Im so excited to get home and show you guys what I got, and bring you both happiness and love. Im here to tell you guys both its not going to be easy but I can see the sunrise and how about the three of us run to it until we get to where we all want to be in life. I love you both more then anything in the world and I want you guys to know I would do anything for you two.

  Daphne I love you so very much, your all I can think about. Just cant ever get you off my mind, I cant wait to get home to you and our little angel :)

 

14 A&F

 

Love, Dylan

 

5 generations

(continued post from "this week")

My dear great-great grandma's birthday was this week, she is 84. We took her to our favorite local pizza place for some lunch and a visit with the babybear.

this week

went by soooo very fast, only the weekend left, YES! I thought I'd point out some major achievements for this mama of one.

-I have drank water and only water, ALL DAY everyday for the past two weeks. With the exception of a vanilla steamer, and a coffee yesterday because I stopped at a stop sign on my way

to school and waited for it to turn green.. yikes.

-continued to eat healthy, hence my berry-licious sugar free smoothie grandma made for me this morning

-ate chicken AND fish in the same week

-had some sort of exercise everyday, a walk with grandma ,3 cheer practices, and

some at home abs and wall sits (;

-made it to school everyday, yes an accomplishment for me.

-and in approximately 43 minutes will be leaving for my great grandmas birthday lunch

5 generations at one table

Dolores, Diana, Danielle, Daphne, and Krewbear (;

and my weeks not even over, I have practice today, a basketball game to cheer at, and an early morning competition in Bellevue tomorrow, plus it's my mom's anniversary today. Love you mama <3

Hope you all have an amazing weekend and take many pictures! XO

Just Sayin'

I miss this guy.

They're my bestfriends (: and not the ones who steal your clothes and your latest crush, (;

Who thinks Krew and this mama should start posting more pictures of us? I do!...  let's start documenting our journey, we got a lot to laugh at babeh boy!

Mommy Needs

So today might have been one of those days, the ones where your hair isn't quite right, you may have gotten dressed in your sleep and your makeup is looking pretty crazy next to your unpainted nails and dry legs. And you could have walked out with a towel in your bra because you ran out of breast pads... Wow, I know I'm a hot mess. As the untamely mommy look took it's rightful place in my schedule today, so did the inspiration for a quick look at my everyday essentials. Maybe you have your own, maybe you don't.. But I thought I'd take a minute to share my beauty (secrets) .. (; No matter what I turn to roughly these 6 things to try and uplift my over all appearance.

1. Clinique dramatically different moisturizng gel, found at any local Macy's department store (; its a MUST! I swear by Clinique, it has totally improved my skin and kept my face soft without the oiliness or thickness. I use it twice a day and it has changed my life. Not an exaggeration.
2.  Big Sexy Hairspray, anyone who knows me, knows I love big poofed hair, next to my poof comb my hairpspray is my favorite. I am a recent convert and use it daily. It smells good and has perfect hold, I also use the root boost foam a couple times a week. These guys know big hair.
3. Fake Bake, my fabulous Uncle Tyson got this for me last year. During my pregnancy I quit tanning and by the time I was due, I was a white fatty. It was perfect for the countdown to birth, giving me a little self esteem boost haha. This self tanner comes with a mit for streakless application and perfect color. I use it on my face all the time and it's perfect for anywhere else on the body also. It has lasted me a long time, SO worth the investment. They have their own website if you want to check it out! (;
4. Bare Essentuals Buxon nude lipgloss, sometimes just a little tinted moisturizer and lipgloss is all you can manage to get ready as a mom. My mom got this for me for Christmas and I take it with my EVERYWHERE. If you ever want good product or to spoil yourself, just go to Sephora. Seriously.
5. Laura Mercier Tinted Moisturizer now, I dont use this product in my own supply, I found it from a friend. I use a cheaper version because this stuff is quite expensive. If you are a minimum makeup kind of girl this is perfect. It's the best way to lighten your complexion and give you some color on a quick day.
6. CoverGirl LashBlast, I have NO EYELASHES at all. So when I go makeup free, you notice man. A little mascara goes a long way for a girl. This mascara is thick and makes my eyelashes show for the little ones I do have. It's cheap too. I used to use waterproof because it helps hold my lashes better but now I am trying to maintain the small amount of lashes I have left, so I use the regular kind. I would recommend that.  Easily washable.

There you have it, my essentuals for a quick pickerupper (; Happy Blogging! If you have any products you can't live without and would care to share, please do!

New Goals New Friends

I am no health expert, by any means. Nor am I an excelled writer... that is the exact motivation behind both of these things, that I am NOT. And, quite frankly should be. I think. So with that I have two things too share.
First, that I am kicking myself into shape. I'll be honest, there is not much I love more than a pack of easymac a ice cold coke and a pack of double stuffed oreos, but I've found yes mom, you are right.. everything changes when you have a baby.. and that includes the size of your uh hem hem, BOOBS, behind, thighs and worst of all TUMMY. So go ahead Daphne, love those things all you want but your definitely not going to ever look like this eating like that. And that's what we want don't we? YES we do Daphne. I must remind myself this everyday :/ Sooo, the health kick has begun, I have given up my precious sugary liquids and fast food snacks and I have chosen to share this, so you hold me to it! Long gone (as of last week... teehee) are the days of pigging out and filling up on delicious mash potatoes, white bread, and other delectable carbs. But I do need help. So, if anyone feels inspired to send me a healthy recipe, idea, or even some motivation that would be awesome. Please, and thank you. (: I am completely enamored with women and their ability to not eat, no offense but seriously food is sooo good. They're obviously missing out. I'm not one to starve myself trying to lose weight, especially with nursing the youngin so this is my attempt at looking hot in my clothes and yes I am saying it.. being "healthy", whatever that means... (;

Second, I have fallen for my new pen pal <3 Mrs. Ford, you are, without a doubt adorable and so intelligent. I love reading your letters and hearing your thoughts, questions and soon to be suggestions! ( I know you are healthy!) This girl is amazing, and she is expecting a little babe of her own which I am so excited about. If anyone has had the itch to write a letter, DO IT. It is so fun, it's a raw material of "this is what I am thinking!" No editing, no typos, just realness and sent with love to a friend.  My dear friend also has an inspiring and creative blog you should definitely check out right now (: You can find her here at bright-eyed delicious.

Going out on a limb here, but I want to start sharing style ideas,the things I really love. We will see where that takes us.. have a great week readers! xoxo! Krew and I have somethin in store (;

The color RED

Today was a RED LIPSTICK day. (: Little sister and I had great fun with the web cam (:
Pretty sure I'm getting super into dramatic looks. This was just some wet'nwild lipstick I found in our bathroom. Once I get the hang of it, I'm for sure about to post more fashion/makeup/style posts.
SuuuuuPERRR exCiTeddd :D

No School More Play

My little Krewbear being his perfect self (: And also giving mama a spit up surprise while she is trying to take pictures! We are completely snowed in, no school for this mom. Power is out in nearly every house.. EXCEPT OURS! Thankyou God. So basically we spent the day with Grammy making cookies, soup, and watching movies.  Plus we got to skype dad while he was in studyhall.. teeheeehee. After spending the entire day eating.. I had to spend the last hour on Pinterest looking for quick work outs. Can't get out of the house so I might as well figure out something. This year is the typical gym resolution, except this year I actually have fat to get rid of. Thanks my little ball of beautiful, Krew &hearts;

ALSO I have found this amazing clothing site, ( Zara )everything from their last season is on SALE, totally marked down and the cutest stuff ever.  I'm totally going to get Krew a jacket and shoes from them. Make sure you wait till the clearance, So worth IT. (:

Happay Bloggin' stay tuned for baby daddy's FIRST BLOG POST

Blog BLOG bLoG

I might be obsessed..  don't get too bored yet (: Really though, I'm going to make something out of this blog one day. I don't know what it is, but there's something about a sleeping baby and double stuffed oreos that really just makes my night, making me a crazed mommy blogger obsessed zombie. (: Plus, a skype sesh with the baby daddy does'nt hurt. <3 I love him... MOST days (; And now the confession, I Daphne Rogers, have joined the dumbest site ever... TWITTER. and I even linked it on my page. I'm COOOL. I'm sure people are wondering what happened to the deep thoughtful writer we THOUGHT she was going to be.. don't worry I'm still in here...  I just come out after 5 history assignments and currently it's nearly 1 AM and school is canceled tomorrow, so I'm a bit ecstatic/tired/loopy right now. (: If I could just add one more thought....

If I get this, I will have died and gone to heaven. PLEASE GOD.
The end, GOooDNigHt.
You've officially got a taste of my other side bloggers. (:

SnOwDaY

This is my happiness <3
Krew  Hudson John is 3 months old today, time has seriously flown!
The last 2 days I have been visiting my dad and soon to be step mother- Robbi (: Yesterday being MLK Day and today, a snow day.. yay! It's always nice to get a little break from the regular routine, get out of the house and visit the people you love. This picture was the only one I could get today of Krew not crying.. he is starting to (teethe?) forgive my spelling.. and is incredibly needy and sad. :( He's not my little newborn anymore! It's so fun though. (: He spent the other night in bed with grandma and grandpa playing airplane, the giggles that came from that room made me jealous! He loved it (: It makes me so happy to watch him learn and grow, hence the 10 smiley faces I have already typed in this short not so creative paragraph. As far as my first season back on the cheer team, not so full of smiles and laughs! It has been very rewarding to get back on the horse and prove it to myself and for Krew, but I tell ya.. it has been some hard work! It of course paid off.. we won first in our qualifier for state scoring 229! Highest Enumclaw Cheer score ever (: NBD!
On a "bloggers" note, I found "The Daybook" through a friend (Jessica Decker) and let me tell you, I'm obsessed.. I might just want to be her haha. If you don't follow her blog, GO. NOW. DO it. She's awesome. I'm completely inspired to follow all 987654321 of my dreams..
Family Photographer
CREATIVE Blogger
Mormon Mommy
Fashion Designer
Neonatal Nurse
Hairstylist
Professional dance/cheerleader
and a few other things.... hey why not? In the words of Martin Luther King... "I have a dream" and I'm gonna stick right too it.


But for now... I think I'll just be Krew's Mom (: ....and a hardworking student.
Happy Snow-Day!

My Bestfriend...

loves me best in my

jammies and no makeup

laughs at all my jokes

looks like a toasted marshmellow

and taste like heaven

trusts me

enjoys Football AND CHEER

loves me ALMOST as much

as I love him

loves to take naps with me

is incredibly handsome :D

is all but 2 ft tall and 14 lbs

makes everyday worth living

cheers me up on even the worst of days

and looks exactly like my other favorite person ever (;

I'd argue I'm the luckiest mama out there :)

Big Girl Steps

Well the last week has been quite a jump for me. I knew I needed a jump star to get back into things... but wow, what a journey. As I sit here and ponder the last 11 weeks of my life one word comes to mind, exhaustion... then JOY. (Of course(; ) Who knew I would be sitting here blogging about my teenage motherhood as my baby watches cartoons in his swing and I run to grab breast pads because it's just that time of day again. One thing that amazes me most, I have never looked back in a regretful sense. I don't know how but I have just proceeded forward, I never contemplated that my life would be ending or that this would change me as a person. God has undeniably been with me this entire way and I am so grateful.

Last week I started my first GRCC class. With a baby that was rounding bed time at about 2:30 AM on a early morning basis and having to leave my house by 7 AM, I didn't think it was possible. I have been amazed how it has all just worked out. I am blessed to have a mom who just rolls with things. For the reasons she drives me crazy, I also love her. She's given my overwhelmed structured personality a reality check, in the way that "life just goes on Daph, you just do it." And I am proud to report that baby and I are to bed around 11 o'clock PM and sleeping sound. School has seriously been a life saver. I thrive off structure, I need to know what I am doing during the day and I admit, I was floundering. My online school wasn't demanding anything of me, I had no extra ciricular and I found myself with all the time in the world with no time in the world. Now I get home at around 9:30 AM to find my sweet baby still asleep in bed every day now, I LOVE IT!- Things are slowly getting so much better.... Currently I am finishing my online and will start a math class at EHS at the semester, so I am really busy but it is working out well. On top of that, my cheer team competes twice this coming weekend.... I decided to join them mid last week... 3 toe-touches into a backhandspring.. you got it Kim! (; Just had a baby, these feet haven't left the ground since last February mind you... Don't judge me. HAHA - I don't quite know how it has all come together, class, online, cheer practice, baby.. but life is just returning back to normal and I am determined to finish strong. This afternoon I sat on the floor stretching, nursing Krew, and reading him "Give Me Liberty! An American History"... not your typical 17 year old afternoon haha I sat there laughing asking Krew, "Do you like 16th century history? Good, cause I don't so listen up buddy!" Hey, I do what I can. (:
On a personal note, Dylan returned to SOU on very short notice last week. I'm not one to hide how I feel, it definently has been very hard but we knew this going into it. Education is the most important thing we can give to Krew. We take everyday one step at a time and encourage eachother, who knows where our adventure will take us next week! All I know is, we can do this. We have had our ups and downs but I just have to take a moment to say I am very grateful for him. He's taught me so much and has shows me unconditional love. Dylan, this all better be worth it! Because this sucks! (; But we can do it ♥
"There is no limit to what you can imagine. And with commitment, with effort, what you can imagine you can become. Put your mind to work for you. Believe that you can do it. The world will tell you that you can't. Yet, in your belief you'll find the strength, you'll find the ability, to do it anyway." Ralph Marston

Ground Zero

So I guess this is how it all starts... being a mom. You trade your prized designer jeans for sweats, your straightener and curling iron for a pony tail, loose the bangs, the heels, the hoop earrings and basically anything that assisted you in being relatively attractive, because... that's not what motherhood is about. You trade the lipgloss in your back pocket for the extra pacifier, the purse for the oversized diaper bag that weighs more than the child and try and find the time to even go to the bathroom. But aren't they so worth it? Motherhood has been to say the least, a sacrifice of my life.... and I wouldn't have it any other way. .

I have always been a very private person... which is odd to see my fingers type ..because I have always considered myself quite open.. If that is possible to be both? I admit... I have no idea what I am doing on this blog or even how it works. I doubt anyone can find any interest in my boring sleepless life but here I sit finding the need to record my life and share it. Odd for a "private person"... but like I said, motherhood does bring out a different person in us women. To start off, I am not extremely social, artistic, creative, or even interesting.. I don't feel I have any hobbies or extreme interests... I am sure you are wondering, why even blog? But I think that is exactly why I am.. to find myself. My life has taken a different path the last year and somehow I feel like this is exactly what I needed. I'm finding true friends, growing closer to my family, and learning how to love someone through the most difficult time in my life. I'm not sure where I will be a year from now but I have learned not to have expectations in life, just goals. Today is the first day of the new year and I want to start fresh.... become a better person, girlfriend, daughter, friend and most of all.. mother. The most important calling I have. I want to remember and record the events of this time of growing and learning.. 2012, here we go. What do we have to gain if we never take any chances to grow?
 Welcome to my life, or I should say.. the life of a mother. Mom, I have truly been humbled

Dylan Krew and I, our first christmas all together.

December 25, 2011