to my dear sweet krew

today, i am both overly joyed with excitment and terrified by the time slipping away from baby daddy and i as we watch our first born and pride and joy begin to crawl, mock our pathetic attempts at saying da-da, sit up by himself, and hold is bottle and send him self to sleep after a long day of impressing us and making our hearts swell with happiness. podie and i sat across from eachother just admiring our krew hudson john agreeing that the love we have for him can not simply be measured or described but felt in the heart. he's a constant company, a reminder of why life is worth living, and a reason to do our best everyday. we're a little man's guidance and home. and he is ours. the things my mom told me i would feel for my son when he was born never held a higher meaning until i held him for the first time. everything just fell into place as i laid eyes on him and realized all the things every other mother said i would feel. i look at pictures of new babies being born and families gathering in hospital rooms and it sends me straight to Oct. 17th, 6 fast and short months ago when i gave birth to krew... new mama's... aren't we so lucky? nothing in this world matters as much as our children do. they're the purest of everything pure. goodness, i love my sweet boy.

and as i think about the devastating events surronding krew's birth i remember the outstanding strength i felt the minute i laid eyes on him. nothing else mattered. i was a mama and i had the most powerful gift god can give a person, motherhood. i blocked everything else out to be your protector.

baby son, i love you more than words can describe. every tear you cry, every laugh you squeal, and every glance you give me with your gummy smile... i just melt and feel at home. today, you have shown me the value of life and the power of being a mother to something so vulnerable. i can not wait to teach you more and watch you learn. your amazing baby boy. and this weekend at daddy's cabin was the perfect getaway and amazing milestone to watch you begin to crawl. your everything to me. sweet dreams my krewbear, 14 always and forever. like your daddy always says (;

*pictures from the lake and the past week of events coming soon! (film being developed)

a 6 month mark

 6 Months

- you laugh, giggle and smile at me daily

-you love to eat pears, bananas and now we eat sweet potatoes!

-we've started to use THE BABY BULLET

-you wake me up at 1am everynight for a little boob

-your a mama's boy <3

-you try to say dada... -_- all the time

-bath time is like karate ninja swimmer attack time with dad

-you nearly jump right out of that ol johnny jumper

-we go on walks in the stroller 

-you take 2 extra long naps which i love too

-you wear little man clothes :) :) 

- you hold your bottle almost all by yourself

-you have real man poops, wow.

-you roll everywhere!

-you like to sing along in the back seat every once in a while

- you adore your daddy

-your wearing 9 month clothes :( 

-you have 2 baby girl cousins now!

-you light up my life each and every morning baby krewbear

Krew Hudson John, you're half a year old my little baby son. You give my life meaning, and wake me up everyday with a smile. Thank you so much for being everything that matters to me and giving me something to love more than life. You are so handsome like your dad and we cherish every single moment with you. I can't decide if I want to keep watching you grow or make time stop!
I love you little honey, XO mama

currently obsessed

just a few pics

 from our family trip back east 2 weeks ago. so much to see so much to learn (:

XO



where art thou mommy blogger wonder?

so there's been a few crazy things going on here at the life blog.. 

1) i have lost almost every materialistic thing that matters to me in life.. let's list them shall we... my phone, my camera, my watch, my clothes, and a not so materialistic thing.. (my sanity.)
2) i havent blogged.. due to lack of photos, time and again sanity.
3) i moved in with my great grandma... and our room has orange carpet.. enough said
4) i have an assignment due tomorrow and i just started.. thankyou group members for leaving me wonderful voicemails  -_-
5) krew has begun to try and sit up/ eat everything in site/ and cry almost whenever i put him down
6) my hair has been in a top knot for nearly 5 consistent days.
7) dylan and i have classes twice a day in different cities
8) I HAVENT EVEN BLOGGED MY PICTURES FROM NAUVOO
ive lost it, but i am soon to jump back on the horse and join the blogging world once again with lots of photos, crafts, ideas and too doo lists... i'm really good at making those things ya know.
SOooo, have a most amazing sunny afternoon and i will see you all in the mommy blogger form, tomorrow (: or.... the next day...

THE END.